Routine Life

My current life is kinda boring sometimes, this has been my weekdays' daily routine for the past few weeks usually:
1. Wake up at 6, either on my laptop and start work or go out for a jog
2. Get prepared for work and leave the house by 8
3. Reach office around 8.30, start work
4. Lunch time between 12.30 to 1.30
5. Continue work from 2pm onwards
6. Finish work around 8pm
7. Reach home, online (usually FB)
8. Sleep around 10.30.

Usually spend most of time during weekends at home, cleaning up the room, watching series...

So, my life's a boring one right? Yeah, I think so too. Don't party out with friends, I know some who do, but I'm just not into that kind of life. I LOVE pets, but can't afford the money or time to have a dog, so I have a rabbit, which doesn't require much of both. I love games, but can't afford the money to really get a kick-ass gaming system. It's not that my job doesn't pay good, it's just that my money are obligated to other stuff (Savings in particular), I gotta save up, gotta build a family soon right? But just that, when you look at it, just feel that my life's kinda boring sometimes.

These are few dreams that I hope to achieve:
1. Get a semi-pro camera (cause I love taking pics, just don't have the equipment)
2. Travel to beautiful natural sites (beaches, forests & mountains) and see other cultural stuff (greek, roman, chinese).
3. Dogs (Always been a dog lover, I even dream to have a dog farm one day).

Not that hard to achieve right? But easier said than done I guess...

Feelings

I grew up with my parents and two brothers, I studied in a Chinese School, where I had the chance to learn 3 major languages, Chinese, English and Malay. I play the piano till grade 8, I watch both Chinese and English movies, I listened mainly to English songs, and I spend a huge amount of time obsessing through Wrestling during my high school period. I became the Head Prefect, Scout Secretary and Club President during high school, but I also skipped class, swore and watched stuff I knew I shouldn't.

Looking back, I always felt that I was the bridge between two different worlds. I'm a pianist with a laborer's body, I'm a head prefect which would skip classes, I'm the English speaking Chinese who could mingle with English and Chinese educated people. Yes, I can mingle with both sides, but sadly I'm best friends with neither. I prefer my own life style. I like the good guy attitude, but I don't like to be "pure", I like the bad guy attitude, but i don't like the activities that come with it: drinking, smoking, going to dance floors, stuff like that. Surprisingly I like pets, I can't get enough of em, first the dogs, then the rabbits, later maybe ferrets, I don't know. I tend to like stuff that show others show no interest to.

Actually I tend to have an odd personality, for example, I put these really odd sentimental feelings in my life up in my Facebook status, and I tend to get embarrassed when my friends talk to me about them. Not to say I'm ashamed, it's just not one would do normally I guess. I don' know, maybe I'm just different than anyone else. I'm 25 and I have a girlfriend whom I've had for 9 years now, and I'm proud of that. But how many 25 year olds really have I have now? I would say it could be because of this relationship, my thinking, my priorities may differ than others. My mind is to be happy, have a successful career and have a great life with my princess. But of course, it comes with hard work, priorities where I can't spend where I could enjoy myself more and less time with friends (cause let's face it, going out with friends tend to empty your wallet abit).

I'm getting the hang of writing a blog, since I don't link my blog to anywhere (no FB, no friendster), I'm guessing not many people I know would really read my blog anyway, so I kinda feel comfortable writing my feelings here. Like I said, this is my palace, where I can really express myself and feel this place really belongs to me :)

Temptation and Opportunity

I've been on hiatus for quite some time now. Been busy with work and trying my best to balance my working life and my personal life. Thank god my princess works in the same company as I do, at least she'll always be there, instead of me always needing to make up for lost time with her. I've been in IBM for 5 months now and the expectations for my performance has gotten more and more. I'm not the new kid in the block, still having the chances to screw up or make mistakes. They expect me to do my best and do the right thing. And most importantly, they expect me to be better. I have nothing to complain, I'm in one of the largest IT corporations in the world, supporting one of the most demanding countries, learning more than most of my peers and more importantly I have the best seniors and teachers, willing to guide me all the way. But my frustrations, has always been towards myself, my weakness, my inefficiency. My manager has always told me that I need to overcome my weakness and change them to be my strength. When would I really be capable of doing that? 5 months already, and I still doubt myself sometimes. Asking questions to confirm with seniors, when actually sometimes I know the answers. Maybe I'm afraid that if I make a mistake, I'll be blamed for not asking. Better safe than sorry right?

As I approach my mid twenties this year, I start to think of better ways to earn more financially. My salary is good enough for not only my expenses but also for savings, but I still need more for the life that I want for me and my princess. And also, we're planning to move out and live together, alone. It's a big step for both us, heading towards the marriage life that we've been dreaming of. I can really start to see, the life with my princess, the house, the car, the pets, the life that I really want. But nothing comes for free, it always starts with hard work I guess.

"Temptation will lean on the doorbell, but opportunity may knock only once." I've started to understand chances don't come as often as you got older, you just need to take every chance you get, and make the most out of it. Kinda sadistic kind of blog I've posted eh?

Happy Chinese New Year, everyone!