Temptation and Opportunity

I've been on hiatus for quite some time now. Been busy with work and trying my best to balance my working life and my personal life. Thank god my princess works in the same company as I do, at least she'll always be there, instead of me always needing to make up for lost time with her. I've been in IBM for 5 months now and the expectations for my performance has gotten more and more. I'm not the new kid in the block, still having the chances to screw up or make mistakes. They expect me to do my best and do the right thing. And most importantly, they expect me to be better. I have nothing to complain, I'm in one of the largest IT corporations in the world, supporting one of the most demanding countries, learning more than most of my peers and more importantly I have the best seniors and teachers, willing to guide me all the way. But my frustrations, has always been towards myself, my weakness, my inefficiency. My manager has always told me that I need to overcome my weakness and change them to be my strength. When would I really be capable of doing that? 5 months already, and I still doubt myself sometimes. Asking questions to confirm with seniors, when actually sometimes I know the answers. Maybe I'm afraid that if I make a mistake, I'll be blamed for not asking. Better safe than sorry right?

As I approach my mid twenties this year, I start to think of better ways to earn more financially. My salary is good enough for not only my expenses but also for savings, but I still need more for the life that I want for me and my princess. And also, we're planning to move out and live together, alone. It's a big step for both us, heading towards the marriage life that we've been dreaming of. I can really start to see, the life with my princess, the house, the car, the pets, the life that I really want. But nothing comes for free, it always starts with hard work I guess.

"Temptation will lean on the doorbell, but opportunity may knock only once." I've started to understand chances don't come as often as you got older, you just need to take every chance you get, and make the most out of it. Kinda sadistic kind of blog I've posted eh?

Happy Chinese New Year, everyone!